Who says doctors don't get sick?

Being a doctor does not make us immune to illness. Like everyone else, I am a human and not exempt from life's challenges, including sickness. In just a few days, I will be undergoing major surgery for my health issue. This experience has given me time to reflect on my life, my relationships, and the impact I’ve had on the people around me.

I want to take this opportunity to apologize to anyone in my life who may have felt hurt, disappointed, or angry because of me. Please know that it was never my intention to cause any pain. As I head into surgery, I pray that there are no complications and that everything goes smoothly. InshaAllah, I hope to come out of this even stronger, so I can continue to fulfill my roles as a mother, wife, daughter, sister and doctor with all my heart.

To my Dearest Husband,

As I prepare to undergo surgery, I want you to know how deeply I love and appreciate you. You have been my rock, my partner, and my greatest source of strength. You’ve stood by me through every challenge, and your love has always been a light in my life, especially when I needed it most. If anything should happen, please know that you have filled my life with happiness, and I am forever grateful for the memories we’ve created together. But, InshaAllah, everything will go well, and I will come back to you, stronger than before. I am looking forward to more years together, building our family and growing old by each other's side. Thank you for being the wonderful husband and father that you are. I love you more than words can express.

To My Dearest Mirza, Mifzal, and Marissa,

You are the greatest treasures of my life. My love for each of you is beyond what words can ever describe. I love you all more than I love myself, and I would do anything to ensure your happiness and well-being. As I go into surgery, I want you to know that I will always be with you, no matter what happens. InshaAllah, I will come out of this surgery healthy, so I can continue to watch you grow, achieve your dreams, and one day have families of your own. My hope is to be there to witness every beautiful moment of your lives, and I want you to know how proud I am of each of you. Please always take care of each other, and love each other unconditionally. You are each other’s strongest allies, and nothing in this world is more important than family.

To My Dearest Parents,

There are no words that can fully express how grateful I am for everything you’ve done for me. You raised me with love, patience, and wisdom, and I am who I am today because of you. As I face this surgery, I reflect on all the lessons you’ve taught me and the sacrifices you’ve made. I carry those lessons with me every day. If anything happens, please know that I have lived a full and happy life, thanks to you both. InshaAllah, I will come out of this stronger, so I can continue to make you proud and repay the love you’ve given me. Thank you for being my guiding lights.

To My Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Growing up with you has been one of the greatest joys of my life. You have been my first friends, my protectors, and my lifelong companions. As I go into surgery, I want to remind you how much I love each of you. InshaAllah, I will come out of this healthy and strong, but if anything happens, know that my love for you will never fade. Take care of one another and continue to share the bond that we have built over the years. I am so grateful to have you as my siblings, and I will always cherish the moments we’ve shared. Thank you for your love and support throughout my life.

As I prepare for this surgery, I am filled with hope and faith. Life is full of uncertainties, but I choose to focus on the love and blessings that surround me. This journey has reminded me that even in difficult times, we must remain strong and trust in Allah's plan.

To everyone reading this, please keep me in your prayers. I believe that with strength, faith, and the support of my loved ones, I will overcome this challenge and continue living the life that I cherish so much. No matter what happens, I am grateful for every moment I have been given. And I look forward to waking up to the smiles of my children, the warmth of my husband's embrace, and the continued support of my family and friends. InshaAllah, I will be back, stronger and more determined than ever to face whatever comes next.

With love and gratitude,

Keyra Halim

Fate and Love: A Reflection on My Journey

A good friend once told me that our destiny, including our life partner, was written by Allah 50,000 years ago. I’m not sure if this is accurate, but it’s something I’ve pondered. During my housemanship, I worked as a junior doctor at a hospital in Perlis. At that time, I thought that once I completed my housemanship, I might try to win back my ex-boyfriend and take things seriously since the most stressful phase of my career would soon be over.

Even though we had broken up, I hadn’t moved on completely because he was my first love, ever since high school. Despite meeting a few male friends after our breakup, none felt serious enough because, in my heart, I still believed we were meant to be. During my housemanship, I became close with two younger male doctors, but they were actually a couple. Both of them were gay, so there was no romantic connection for me. To be honest, I’ve always had more male friends than female ones.

There were even a couple of colleagues who proposed marriage, but I turned them down. The housemanship years were incredibly exhausting—by 5 a.m., I had to be at the hospital, and I wouldn’t get home until late at night. During the 'tagging' period, I wouldn’t return home until 10 or 11 p.m., and the next day, I had to be back by 5 a.m. It was relentless.

There was one particular day, during my paediatric rotation, when I felt incredibly overwhelmed. I was only a few months away from finishing my housemanship, but the stress was mounting. In a moment of weakness, I called my ex-boyfriend. It was late 2013, and I remember feeling desperate to reconcile. But he rejected me. I cried, begging him to take me back, but it was useless. I realized then that he had moved on, likely finding someone else.

I felt heartbroken—overwhelmed by both work stress and the pain of rejection. I cried all day, not knowing how to surrender to fate or accept it. A few months later, I reached out to him again on Skype. Can you guess what happened? He told me he was getting married and sent me his wedding invitation card. My heart shattered into a million pieces, and I cried like never before. But, being my stubborn, prideful self, I acted as though everything was fine. I responded casually, pretending that I wasn’t hurting inside.

That was Shakirah—stubborn and proud to a fault. But that was my younger self. Eventually, I came to terms with the situation and accepted my fate.

As for how I met my husband, well, it was quite unexpected. He was a university friend of my brother’s, and one day, during Hari Raya, he visited my house with his parents. His mother took a liking to me, and that’s how our relationship began. They proposed soon after. Initially, I accepted the proposal partly out of a sense of vengeance and hurt—still angry that my ex had moved on and married before me. If I recall correctly, they visited during Raya in July 2014, and we got married in October 2014. Things moved quickly. Funny, isn’t it?

Bersedia Sebelum Bersama

Saya nak cerita pula bagaimana dari kekecewaan, saya boleh bertemu dengan suami saya. Tapi ini, next next post ok? To my children, blog ni khas utk korang bertiga. Mama tak perlukan orang lain untuk membaca. Tapi ni semua kisah hidup Mama yang boleh kalian tahu dan ambil sebagai pedoman. Mama yakin, kesilapan akan jadikan pedoman hidup paling bagus dan apa yang Mama telah lalui selama ini, ambil mana yang baik untuk digunapakai dalam kehidupan. Jika Mama pergi dulu dan tak sempat ajar hal-hal begini kepada kalian... bacalah blog mama dengan sepenuh hati. Ambil pengajaran.

Sebelum berkahwin, sangat penting untuk buat perancangan yang jelas dengan pasangan tentang bagaimana semua komitmen ini akan diuruskan. Setiap aspek dalam perkahwinan perlukan persetujuan bersama dan perancangan yang matang, terutama hal-hal yang berkaitan kewangan, tugasan rumah, dan urusan anak-anak. Berikut adalah beberapa perkara yang patut dibincangkan dengan teliti sebelum berkahwin:

Komitmen Kewangan:

Siapa yang akan menanggung perbelanjaan utama seperti bil rumah, kereta, makanan, dan keperluan harian? Adakah perbelanjaan ini akan dibahagi sama rata, atau salah seorang akan lebih bertanggungjawab? Bagaimana pula dengan simpanan jangka panjang, insurans, dan pelaburan? Ini penting supaya tidak ada konflik tentang siapa yang harus menanggung beban kewangan.

Kerjaya dan Waktu Kerja:

Adakah kedua-dua pihak akan bekerja sepenuh masa atau salah seorang akan fokus kepada keluarga? Bagaimana waktu kerja yang panjang atau tidak menentu boleh memberi kesan kepada perkahwinan dan anak-anak? Diskusikan juga tentang sokongan yang diperlukan jika salah seorang perlu lebih fokus pada kerjaya pada suatu ketika.

Tugasan Rumah:

Siapa yang akan bertanggungjawab atas tugasan rumah seperti memasak, membersih, mencuci baju, dan sebagainya? Jika kedua-dua pihak bekerja, tugasan rumah perlu dibahagi dengan adil agar tidak menjadi beban kepada satu pihak sahaja. Atau mungkin mempertimbangkan pembantu rumah jika perlu.

Urusan Anak-Anak:

Bagaimana jika anak-anak hadir? Adakah kedua-dua pihak bersedia dari segi masa, tenaga, dan emosi? Diskusikan bagaimana membesarkan anak, dari segi disiplin, pendidikan, dan penglibatan ibu bapa. Perlu juga berbincang siapa yang akan lebih banyak meluangkan masa dengan anak-anak dan bagaimana jadual itu boleh diuruskan.

Nafkah dan Kewajipan Agama:

Bagi yang beragama Islam, isu nafkah adalah satu tanggungjawab besar suami. Diskusikan dengan jelas apa yang suami akan sediakan sebagai nafkah untuk isteri dan anak-anak, termasuk nafkah zahir dan batin. Jangan lupa untuk berbincang juga tentang amalan beragama, seperti solat bersama, didikan agama anak-anak, dan sebagainya.

Cita-cita dan Harapan Masa Depan:

Apakah visi bersama untuk masa depan? Adakah kedua-dua pihak sehaluan dalam cita-cita dan impian hidup, seperti tempat tinggal, kehidupan kerjaya, percutian, atau perancangan persaraan?

Perbincangan awal ini dapat membantu mengelakkan rasa kecewa di kemudian hari apabila harapan tidak sejajar dengan realiti. Yang paling penting, sentiasa ingat bahawa perkahwinan adalah perkongsian hidup di mana kedua-dua pihak perlu memberi dan menerima, memahami dan bertolak ansur, serta bekerjasama untuk mencapai kesejahteraan bersama.

Little Do You Know: The Hidden Struggles Behind Love

One of my favorite songs. Listening to this song makes me thinking that sometimes, love is not enough. When I reflect on my past relationship, I realize how much love I had for someone who, despite his good heart, wasn't the right match for me at that time. Little did he know that behind my smile, I was struggling with internal battles—about our future, our differences, and most importantly, myself. Just like the lyrics in Alex & Sierra’s song, both of us were trying to make things work while quietly enduring our own pain.

One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned from that relationship is that love requires more than just emotion. It demands honesty, communication, and the willingness to grow together. My ex-boyfriend and I, we loved deeply, but we didn’t guide each other towards growth. In my case, I didn’t speak up about my fears, my confusion, or my doubts. I thought love alone could fix everything, but as time went on, I learned that real love isn’t just about holding on. It’s about being brave enough to let go when things aren’t right.

I stayed quiet about my struggles, just like in "Little Do You Know". I pushed him away when I felt overwhelmed and came back when the love pulled me in again. But that constant push and pull exhausted both of us. And while we tried our best, I wasn’t being true to myself. I was selfish in ways I didn’t realize then. I wasn’t ready to face the reality that sometimes, even the deepest love isn’t enough when two people aren’t aligned in their paths.

This is what I want to tell all the girls out there. It’s okay to love, but it’s also okay to admit when love isn’t right. Don’t hide your struggles like I did, thinking things will magically get better. Relationships need honesty, not just with your partner, but with yourself. And when the time comes to make a difficult decision, know that letting go doesn’t mean you didn’t love enough. Sometimes, it means you loved yourself enough to choose what’s best for your future.

“I’m Sorry, But We Found a Tumor”?

What Would You Do if a Doctor Told You, “I’m Sorry, But We Found a Tumor”?

No one ever expects to hear the words, “I’m sorry, but we found a tumor.” It’s one of those moments that stops time. You sit there, trying to process the gravity of the situation, your heart racing, and your mind racing even faster. How do you react? What do you do next? These are questions no one wants to face, but unfortunately, they are a reality for many.

So, what would you do if a doctor told you, “I’ve found a tumor, and we need to run further tests to determine if it’s benign or malignant”?

1. Take a Deep Breath

The first thing you need to do is breathe. In moments like this, your emotions will naturally take over, and that’s okay. But before letting fear or panic consume you, take a moment to ground yourself. Deep breathing helps your mind clear so you can think more rationally.

2. Ask Questions

Knowledge is power, and when it comes to your health, understanding your situation is crucial. Don’t be afraid to ask the doctor for more details about the tumor. How big is it? Where is it located? What do the next steps look like? Are there risks with the tests? When will you know the results?

The more information you gather, the more prepared you will feel to face whatever comes next.

3. Trust the Process but Be Proactive

It’s easy to feel powerless in these situations, but remember that medical professionals are trained to handle cases like yours. Trust that your doctor will guide you through the next steps. At the same time, be proactive. Ask about the possible outcomes and treatments available for both benign and malignant tumors. Inquire if you should seek a second opinion or additional tests. Being informed will help you stay mentally strong.

4. Lean on Your Support System

You don’t have to go through this alone. Now is the time to rely on your family, friends, or anyone who can offer support. Share what you’re going through with those closest to you. Sometimes, having someone listen, hug you, or even distract you from your worries can make all the difference. Don’t bottle up your emotions.

5. Manage Your Emotions, But Allow Yourself to Feel

Hearing that you might have a serious health condition can stir up a whirlwind of emotions—fear, sadness, confusion, anger. It’s normal to feel overwhelmed. While it’s essential to stay composed, don’t suppress what you’re feeling. Cry if you need to, talk about your fears, or journal your thoughts. Processing your emotions will help you find strength to keep going.

6. Have Faith and Write It Out

If you have a spiritual or religious belief, now is the time to lean on it. In moments like this, many find comfort in their faith, knowing that they are not alone. Trust that there is a higher power watching over you, and whatever the outcome, you will have the strength to handle it.

Sometimes, writing can also be a great release. Even if nobody is following your blog or social media, it can be a powerful tool for processing your emotions. Putting your fears, hopes, and thoughts into words helps you organize the chaos in your mind. It’s not about having an audience. it’s about giving yourself a voice. You’ll be surprised at how healing it can be to simply write it all out.

7. Prepare for the Results

Waiting for the results of your tests can feel like an eternity. It’s one of the most difficult parts of the process because you are caught in limbo between knowing and not knowing. During this time, it’s essential to maintain a sense of normalcy. Keep yourself occupied, focus on the things you enjoy, and remind yourself that you can’t control the outcome—but you can control how you face it.

Being told that you might have a tumor is not something anyone is prepared for, but facing uncertainty is part of life. No matter the outcome, remember that you are not alone. Surround yourself with love, seek answers, and trust that you will find the strength to face whatever lies ahead. You don’t have to be fearless, but you do have to be resilient. And through resilience, you will find the courage to keep moving forward.

#cancerfighter

Do It with All Your Heart: My Journey of Perseverance

In everything I do, I believe in giving my best. I’m not someone particularly brilliant, but I’m diligent. My success in school, whether it was in UPSR, PMR, or SPM, wasn’t because I was gifted but because I worked hard. However, when I was offered the opportunity to study in Australia after completing a foundation in Shah Alam, things took a different turn. I experienced what you might call "culture shock."

It was during this period that I began to lose my way. I failed my AUSMAT exams and ended up studying in Indonesia. Why? Simply because I didn’t give my full effort. This was one of the darkest periods of my life. I became lazy, rebellious, and indifferent towards my studies. I was going through a tough time with my ex-boyfriend, and there were countless other issues. Oddly enough, despite being the person closest to me while growing up, even more so than my parents, my ex-boyfriend never once asked, “Why are you going through this? What’s wrong? How can I help you lighten this burden you’re carrying?” Never! Not once.

At the time, I couldn’t understand why he didn’t seem to notice or care about my struggles. It felt as though I was facing everything alone. I wanted someone to ask, to understand, but that never happened. I spiraled into a rebellious phase, feeling lost and disconnected from myself and everyone around me. It was a time where I could have used guidance, yet I chose to remain silent.

To all the young people out there, I want to share a piece of advice: don’t choose the path I did. Don’t make hasty decisions. Don’t be afraid to express your feelings or to reach out to those closest to you when you’re struggling. Looking back, I believe if I had been honest with myself and sought help from the important people in my life, my story might have turned out differently.

Now, back to the topic of doing things with determination. Eventually, I did become a doctor. At first, I wanted to specialize, but after getting married, I set that ambition aside to support my husband and raise our children. However, my sense of purpose was reignited when I decided to open my own clinic.

I quietly applied for assistance from MARA, went for an interview, and I was one of the 20 individuals selected to open a branch of U.N.I KLINIK under the Prospek program. I poured my heart and soul into preparing the paperwork for this venture, and in December 2021, DR MMM HEALTH GROUP SDN BHD was established. My clinic officially opened in June 2022.

Throughout this process, I went back and forth to MPSJ, dealt with contractors, and sourced equipment for the clinic. Some things I did on my own, while others were made possible by the helping hands of many incredible people. When the clinic finally opened, I worked from 8:30 a.m. to 9:30 p.m. every day for over a year without a break.

People often say, “Oh, running a clinic must be nice,” but they don’t see the countless challenges and hurdles I had to overcome. But Allah is merciful, and He planned everything perfectly. Every hardship I faced, there was always a way out. There were always these "magical hands" that came to help me. These people who stepped in during times of difficulty hold a special place in my heart.

As I grow older, I’ve come to firmly believe that perseverance yields results. I believe that success is tied to diligence. I also believe that Allah eases my journey thanks to the prayers of the noble people in my life, especially my parents. Every hardship comes with ease, and I trust that Allah has tested me because He knows I can endure it.

This clinic has become the reason I’ve grown closer to God because I am certain that He is always with me, showering me with His blessings. I believe God is watching over me. So, my advice to you is this: work hard, then trust in God. His help will come when the time is right.

Marilah Merasakan Diri Kita Sebagai Wanita yang Hebat

Semenjak beberapa hari kebelakangan ini, saya sering melihat di newsfeed TikTok pelbagai kisah isteri yang kecewa dengan suami. Saya yakin, ramai wanita di luar sana mungkin ada merasa kekecewaan dalam perkahwinan masing-masing. Namun, mengapa kita kecewa? Kekecewaan itu lahir kerana kita berharap, dan apa yang kita harapkan tidak menjadi seperti yang kita inginkan.

Memang bertuah jika ada suami yang membantu isteri dalam segala urusan – dari aspek kewangan, anak-anak, nafkah, dan sebagainya – serta menjalankan tanggungjawab dengan sempurna. Tetapi, bagaimana pula jika suami kita memiliki kekurangan? Di sinilah kita perlu menjadi wanita yang hebat. Allah hadirkan pasangan kita dengan satu tujuan – untuk mengajar kita sesuatu. Allah ingin menguji tahap kesabaran kita sebagai isteri, serta menunjukkan pelbagai hikmah di sebalik ujian tersebut.

Jadilah wanita yang hebat. Isteri dan ibu yang hebat. Sebagai isteri, simpan segala hal peribadi rapat-rapat sebagai rahsia kita dan pasangan. Jika ada masalah, mengadulah kepada Tuhan. Kita hanyalah manusia, pasti ada rasa tidak puas hati terhadap pasangan. Suarakan perasaan kita kepada pasangan dengan cara yang baik. Jika pasangan bersikap acuh tak acuh, luahkan segalanya kepada Allah. Dialah tempat terbaik untuk mengadu dan meminta pertolongan.

Perkahwinan sememangnya menuntut pengorbanan. Saya masih ingat ketika suami saya sedang menyambung pelajaran dalam bidang kepakaran, kami tinggal berjauhan. Saya di Kuala Pilah, dan suami berpindah-randah di hospital-hospital lain. Ketika itu, kami sudah dikurniakan dua orang anak, dan segala urusan anak-anak saya uruskan sendiri. Setiap hari Jumaat, saya akan memandu bersama anak-anak untuk melawat suami. Malah, ada pesakit yang menganggap saya janda kerana sering melihat saya berseorangan dengan anak-anak.

Saya juga masih ingat detik kelahiran anak pertama kami. Sewaktu itu, kandungan sudah mencecah 40 minggu 5 hari. Selepas bekerja seharian di klinik, saya sambung pula locum hingga jam 10 malam. Tiba-tiba, saya rasa ada kebocoran air ketuban, tetapi saya masih tenang. Saya menghubungi kakak ipar saya, seorang doktor di Hospital Melaka, yang kemudian memeriksa saya dan mendapati cecair amnion tinggal sedikit. Saya segera diinduce pada malam itu, tanpa suami di sisi. 23 jam saya menahan sakit bersalin, dan hanya beberapa jam sebelum pembedahan kecemasan, barulah suami saya tiba di hospital. Alhamdulillah, anak pertama kami lahir dengan selamat, walaupun sempat demam dan disyaki ada jangkitan di otak. Ketika itu, doktor mengesyaki ada kuman di otaknya dan anak saya yang baru berusia seminggu perlu menjalani ujian mengambil air sumsum tulang belakang (lumbar puncture). Saya yang masih dalam kesakitan selepas pembedahan, tidak dapat berehat sepenuhnya kerana suami perlu segera kembali bekerja dan tidak dapat mengambil cuti tambahan kerana sedang menyambung pelajaran pakar. Setiap hari, saya gagahkan diri untuk berjalan dari wad saya ke NICU untuk melawat bayi saya dan menghantar susu kepadanya, walaupun luka pembedahan masih belum sembuh. Alhamdulillah, selepas semua ujian tersebut, anak saya sihat hingga ke hari ini.

Ketiga-tiga anak saya saya susukan sepenuhnya. Anak pertama saya disusukan sehingga usia 2 tahun, anak kedua sehingga 2 tahun setengah, dan yang bongsu sehingga 4 tahun. Walaupun penat, saya tetap gigih. Saya bekerja pada waktu siang, pulang menguruskan anak-anak, dan sepanjang malam bangun untuk menyusukan mereka. Walaupun tidur malam sering terganggu, saya yakin wanita yang hebat adalah wanita yang cekal menghadapi cabaran seperti ini. Alhamdulillah, berkat kesabaran, saya dapat melalui semuanya dengan baik.

Anak bongsu saya lahir pada 31 Januari 2020. Sebulan selepas itu, ibu mertua saya pulang kepada Penciptanya pada Februari 2020. Tidak lama kemudian, pada Mac 2020, bermulalah zaman COVID-19 dan Perintah Kawalan Pergerakan (PKP). Namun, kami para doktor masih perlu bergerak kerana kami diwajibkan untuk terus bekerja. Pada masa itu, suami saya yang bekerja di bidang anestesia perlu bertugas di ICU merawat pesakit COVID-19. Kerja beliau memerlukan kuarantin selama dua minggu setiap kali berlaku kontak rapat, menjadikan hidup kami semakin mencabar. Saya pula bekerja dalam unit primer, menguruskan kes-kes COVID-19 di negeri Selangor. Dengan tanggungjawab yang semakin berat, saya akhirnya membuat keputusan untuk berhenti kerja di KKM pada penghujung 2021. Suami saya tidak bersetuju pada mulanya, tetapi saya nekad kerana anak-anak saya membesar tanpa ibu dan ayah di sisi.

Selepas saya membuka klinik sendiri, rutin harian saya menjadi lebih mencabar. Saya tiada pembantu rumah, dan segala urusan anak-anak saya uruskan sendiri. Setiap hari, saya hantar anak ke sekolah, ambil mereka, bawa mereka ke kelas, dan uruskan rumah serta klinik pada masa yang sama. Walaupun penat, saya tidak pernah berputus asa.

Kini, pada tahun 2024, selepas 2 tahun 3 bulan ...klinik saya semakin maju. Suami saya sering bertanya tentang rancangan untuk membuka cawangan klinik kedua, melihat kepada perkembangan yang positif.

Rutin harian saya masih bermula seawal jam 5 pagi, dan biasanya hanya berakhir pada pukul 12 atau 1 pagi keesokan harinya. Selepas beberapa jam tidur, saya bangun semula pada pukul 5 pagi untuk memulakan hari yang baru. Saya akan memasak dan menyediakan bekalan makanan untuk anak-anak yang bersekolah di sekolah Cina sebelum terus ke klinik. Sampai di klinik, saya akan tidur sekejap selama 1 jam di dalam kereta sementara menunggu klinik mula pada pukul 8.30 pagi. Staff saya sudah terbiasa melihat saya tidur dalam kereta setiap pagi. haha habis urusan klinik, sampai waktu ambil anak.. saya akan keluar ambil mereka dan siapkan mereka untuk ke kelas tambahan atau kelas mengaji, atau kelas kelas lain seperti art class, AI class, kelas computer dll. Saya target, anak-anak saya akan belajar ilmu soft skills, ilmu pengurusan kewangan dan ilmu mempertahankan diri tidak lama lagi. Kemudian, saya akan hantar mereka menghafal alquran di samping belajar ilmu proffesional utk bekalan dunia. Saya juga akan mempersiapkan mereka agar menjadi orang yang berakhlak mulia dan meletakkan Allah pertama dihati mereka dan sentiasda bersyukur serta menghargai setiap benda dalam hidup mereka.. InshaAllah

Alhamdulillah, dengan adanya doktor-doktor lain yang bekerja membantu saya, saya kini dapat membahagikan masa dengan lebih baik antara keluarga, klinik, dan diri sendiri.

Menjadi wanita yang hebat bukanlah mudah. Rasailah dan hargailah diri anda sebagai wanita yang super hebat. Saya sentiasa mengingatkan diri sendiri, hidup di dunia ini memang penat. Namun, nikmatilah kepenatan itu kerana satu masa nanti, Allah akan gantikan kepenatan kita dengan syurga. Biarlah kita bersusah payah membesarkan anak-anak sekarang, daripada bersusah di kemudian hari melayan karenah mereka akibat kita abaikan tanggungjawab mendidik mereka dengan agama dan ilmu sewaktu mereka masih kecil. Setiap pengorbanan yang kita lakukan hari ini adalah untuk masa depan mereka, dan Allah tidak akan sia-siakan kesabaran kita. Allah akan balas segala-galanya dengan sesuatu yang indah jika kita berjaya lepas dari ujiannya. Memang dunia ni kan tempat kita diuji? Jalani aja....

The Older I Get, The More That I See

As I grow older, life’s lessons become clearer. On my recent journey from Johor to Kuala Lumpur, I found myself repeatedly listening to the song "Older" by Sasha Alex Sloan. The chorus resonated deeply with me, going something like this:

"The older I get, the more that I see

My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me

And loving is hard, it don't always work

You just try your best not to get hurt

I used to be mad but now I know

Sometimes it's better to let someone go

It just hadn't hit me yet

The older I get."

The lyrics beautifully captured the essence of growing up, learning that our parents are not perfect and that love, as powerful as it is, doesn't always work out the way we hope. It reminds me that life is full of challenges, and we must navigate them with resilience and understanding.

As I grow older, life’s lessons become clearer. One of the most significant lessons is the importance of education. We must study hard, not just for the sake of getting good grades, but because knowledge shapes who we are and the opportunities we’ll have in life. Education goes beyond the classroom. It teaches us discipline, resilience, and the value of striving for more. The knowledge we gain, whether formal or through life experiences, equips us to make wiser decisions and opens doors that would otherwise remain closed. Education is an investment in ourselves, one that will continue to pay off throughout our lives.

As I grow older, I realized when it comes to choosing a life partner, it’s essential to find someone who shares similar values, especially in terms of family and education. Compatibility in these areas fosters mutual respect and understanding. If you come from a privileged background where having a driver or maid is the norm, finding a partner who comes from a similar lifestyle helps ensure that your values and expectations align. However, if life circumstances are different and hiring help isn’t possible, it’s important to choose a partner who is willing to share responsibilities. Whether it's ironing the children's clothes or helping with everyday chores, a partner who is supportive and cooperative will be a true asset in managing the challenges of family life. Marriage is a lifelong journey, and having a partner who walks that path with you, side by side, makes all the difference.

As I grow older, I realized that life is unpredictable, like a wheel that is constantly turning. One day we may be on top, but in an instant, we could find ourselves at the bottom. This is why it’s important to treat everyone with kindness and respect. Hurting others for personal gain may seem tempting when you’re on top, but remember that life has a way of evening out the scales. The people you harm today may be the very ones you need tomorrow. Always live with compassion because what goes around truly does come around.

As I grow older, I realized that in life, it’s important to strike a balance between love and hate. Don’t love someone so much that it blinds you, nor hate so intensely that it consumes you. Sometimes, loving someone doesn’t mean you need to hold on to them. Letting go can be an act of love, too. In the same way, don’t let hatred linger in your heart. It only breeds negativity and poisons your soul. Life is too short to be consumed by extreme emotions. Learn to find peace in balance.

As I grow older, I realized that there’s a universal truth that good will always prevail over evil. Acts of kindness, no matter how small, carry a lasting impact. Even when faced with adversity or negativity, choosing to do good will eventually lead to better outcomes. It’s easy to get discouraged when the world seems unjust, but remember that the strength of goodness is enduring. It may take time, but the rewards of living a life filled with compassion and integrity will always outweigh the short-term gains of wrongdoing.

As I grow older, I realized that we all need money to live, but as I’ve learned over the years, we should never become slaves to it. Money should serve us as a tool to build a fulfilling life, but it should not dictate our happiness or values. The pursuit of wealth at the cost of our well-being, relationships, and peace of mind is a dangerous path. Life is not about accumulating riches but about living with purpose. The real wealth lies in our ability to be content and live with integrity, no matter our financial situation.

As I grow older, I realized that one of the most important lessons I’ve learned is to place God at the center of my life. In every decision, every challenge, and every success, it’s vital to remember that all things happen through His will. Seeking guidance and asking for His blessings leads to clarity and peace of mind. No matter what goals we achieve or failures we encounter, having faith in God provides the strength and wisdom to navigate through life’s ups and downs.

As I grow older, I realized that harming another person, whether intentionally or not, creates a wound that may not always be easy to heal. Apologizing for our wrongs is difficult, not just because of our pride, but because there’s no guarantee the other person will forgive us. This is why it’s crucial to live with integrity and avoid causing harm in the first place. Holding onto grudges or refusing to make amends only leads to more pain. Life is too short for unnecessary conflicts, so it’s better to live in a way that leaves no room for regret. As I navigate this journey, these lessons stay close to my heart. I hope to instill them in my children as well, so they too may grow with wisdom, humility, and a deep sense of purpose and avoid repeating the mistakes I’ve made in my life.

Choosing Your Circle of Friends Wisely

Today, I had the chance to listen to a podcast by Sheikh Saeed Warsama, discussing an important topic: Why we need to carefully choose who surrounds us. One of the quotes that caught my attention was: "Show me your friends, and I will show you where you're going to be in ten years."

Have you ever thought that who we are today is a reflection of the people we spent time with over the past few years?

From a psychological perspective, there's a concept known as the Proximity Effect. In other words, our habits combined with the habits of our friends create a habit circle. The more time we spend observing, listening to, and interacting with certain people, the more we begin to reflect who they are.

It’s essential to choose your circle of friends wisely. Not everyone deserves your presence and energy. The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said: "A person is upon the religion of his friend, so let one of you look at whom he befriends." (Hadith narrated by Abu Dawud).

How do you choose your friends? First, it starts with pure intention, and sincerely ask Allah for guidance. But it all begins with ourselves. Strive to become a servant who obeys Allah and His Messenger. Work on improving your character and doing good to others. Acknowledge your weaknesses and never stop striving to be someone who brings benefit to others.Believe this: When you correct your intention and aim to become a better version of yourself, Allah will change your entire circle of friends. It doesn’t mean you become enemies with others, but Allah will bring good people into your life and distance you from those who aren't suitable for you.

Sometimes, Allah reduces your circle because He heard conversations you didn’t.

As we grow older, we should become more discerning about whom we spend our time with. We shouldn’t remain in circles full of mockery, gossip, or unnecessary drama. Growing older means having the courage to walk away from toxic relationships.

In the Quran, Surah Al-Furqan verses 27-29, Allah describes the regret of a person who took a friend that led him astray. It’s better to have a small number of true friends who genuinely care for us and are willing to correct our mistakes out of love, rather than be surrounded by many who bring no benefit.This small circle of friends is what we should cherish the most. They are people who have clear life goals that align with ours.

However, expand your acquaintances for the purpose of networking or other needs. But when it comes to everyday life, a few high-quality friends are enough. Personally, I am now more selective about what I read and watch, especially on social media. Everything we follow influences our thinking. So, be cautious about whom you associate with and whom you follow. If you're easily influenced, you'll quickly take on the mindset of those around you.

Finally, strive each day to improve ourselves. As you begin to change for the better, you’ll notice changes in those around you. You’ll see who truly stays by your side and who no longer fits in your life.Remember, some people will judge you for changing, but others will celebrate your growth. Choose your circle wisely and be mindful of who you let into it, because not everyone deserves to be a part of your life.

Preparing for the Future: A Mother's Journey Through Challenges and Values

As I grow older, I find myself reflecting more on what truly matters at this stage of my life. It's no longer just about the day-to-day rush, the endless to-do lists, or even the personal goals I once set for myself. Instead, my thoughts have shifted towards preparing a secure and nurturing future for my children.

I want them to have more than just a good education. I want to equip them with the tools they need to navigate this world and the next. It is not just about accumulating worldly knowledge, but also about preparing them for the hereafter, and that is where my real focus lies.

Yet, I must confess, this is no easy feat. Knowledge alone is never enough. Good character, respect, kindness, and empathy—these are the values that need to be prioritized above everything else. And instilling these virtues in my children, day in and day out, has proven to be one of the most challenging aspects of parenting.

Raising boys comes with its own unique set of challenges—teaching them to be strong yet gentle, assertive but respectful. Boys, with all their boundless energy and curiosity, often require constant guidance to channel their strengths positively. Then there’s raising a daughter, which brings a different set of hurdles. It’s about nurturing her confidence, protecting her innocence while preparing her to face a world that often expects her to fit into predefined molds.

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm doing enough. Each day is a balancing act between providing them with the best education and ensuring they grow up with strong moral and religious values. I strive to instill in them a sense of purpose beyond their studies, reminding them that while knowledge can open doors, it is their character that will determine the path they walk through those doors.

We try to make learning an all-encompassing experience. After all, it's not just about getting good grades or excelling in school, it’s about learning to be good human beings. We spend our weekends together at the local mosque, attending religious classes, or simply having deep conversations about life’s many questions. We talk about honesty, integrity, and empathy—the very building blocks of character. But I’ve come to realize that it's not just about the formal lessons, it’s about the small, everyday moments where true learning happens.

There are days when I feel overwhelmed by the weight of this responsibility. Days when I question if I’m doing enough, or if I’m on the right path. But then, there are moments—small, fleeting moments—that reassure me. Like when my son offers his favorite toy to a friend in need or when my daughter speaks with kindness to the eldest. It’s in these moments that I see the seeds we’ve been planting start to sprout.

I believe, deep in my heart, that if every family made it a priority to instill good character, provide a solid education, and nurture a strong foundation in religious knowledge, our world would be a much more peaceful place. It starts in the home, with the small lessons that lead to greater understanding and empathy.

As I look to the future, I am filled with a mixture of hope and determination. I want my children to not only succeed in their careers but to grow into compassionate, respectful, and kind individuals. I want them to be the kind of people who make this world better, one small action at a time. And while the journey is undoubtedly challenging, I am learning to embrace the struggles as part of the process.

So, I continue this path, with all its highs and lows, believing that the effort is worth it. Because at the end of the day, it’s not just about preparing them for this life, it’s about preparing them for what comes after. And that, to me, is the greatest gift I could ever hope to give them.

Moments Become Memories, and People Become Lessons

There was a time when I believed love could conquer all. I was deeply in love with someone — someone who was kind, gentle, and sincere. We shared many wonderful moments together, moments that, at the time, felt like they would last forever. He was a good man, and I cherished him with all my heart. But as time went on, I found myself questioning whether love alone was truly enough to sustain us.

I tried many times to make it work, to hold onto what we had. But as much as I loved him, there was a part of me that felt lost, unsure if this was the right path for my heart and my life. Despite his kindness, I realized that he wasn't guiding me toward becoming a better version of myself. Our relationship, while filled with love, lacked the direction and purpose that I needed to grow and flourish.

I remember feeling torn, confused, my heart heavy with indecision. I kept asking myself, "Is love enough?" I wanted to believe it was, that our connection could withstand any challenge. But deep down, I knew something was missing — something essential. I realized that a relationship is not just about love; it’s also about growth, about supporting each other to become the best versions of ourselves.

Looking back, I can see that I, too, was often selfish. There were moments when I would push him away, convinced that walking away was the right thing to do. But then, I would find myself coming back into his life because I still cared so deeply. We were together for a long time, and I struggled with my feelings. The mistake I made was not being honest — not with myself, and not with him. I kept so much bottled up inside, unable to express what I truly felt in my heart.

Instead of speaking my truth, I would hold it all in, letting my frustration build up. I would get angry, but not at him — at myself, at our situation, at the confusion that clouded my mind. And in those moments of anger, I would run away, distancing myself when I couldn't face what was happening between us.

I am certain he has found someone who complements his life perfectly, someone who brings out the best in him, just as I was searching for someone who could do the same for me. He was a good man, and I wish him nothing but happiness. Our time together taught me many things, and for that, I am grateful.

The lesson I learned from that relationship is one that has stayed with me: love, while beautiful, is not always enough. It takes more than affection and passion to build a life together. It takes mutual respect, shared values, and a common purpose. It takes two people who are willing to guide each other toward growth and improvement.

Looking back, I see our moments together as cherished memories. I remember the laughter, the late-night talks, and the dreams we once shared. But I also remember the confusion, the self-doubt, and the realization that love alone was not enough to keep us together. Those memories are now a part of me, a chapter in my life that shaped who I am today.

I carry those lessons with me, understanding now that every person who comes into our lives has something to teach us. Sometimes, they teach us about love, and sometimes they teach us about ourselves — our needs, our boundaries, and what truly matters to us.

I learned that it’s okay to let go when you know something isn't right, even if it hurts. I learned that we deserve to be in relationships that nurture our souls and encourage our growth. And most importantly, I learned to trust my own heart, even when it felt uncertain and confused.

So, to the person I loved so deeply, thank you for the memories and the lessons. You taught me that while love is precious, it is also just one part of a much larger picture. I hope you have found your happiness, just as I continue to seek mine. And I hope that, in the end, we both find what we were truly looking for all along.

And now, I take these lessons with me, to pass on to my children, especially my daughter. I want her to understand that finding a life partner is not just about finding love. It’s about finding someone who is responsible, who is ready to face life’s challenges with her, and who will walk with her through both the good times and the bad. Life is not always just the two of you; one day, there will be children, there will be struggles and tests, and you will wonder if this partner will stand by you, no matter what.

To my sons, remember this: Do not love before it is time. Love when you are ready, when you have found someone who will grow with you, when you are mature enough to handle the ups and downs that life brings. Love when you are ready to take on the responsibility, not just the excitement of being with someone. Because love is not just a fleeting feeling or a youthful crush — it is a commitment to walk alongside another person, to support, to challenge, and to grow together.

This is what I have learned, and this is what I hope my children will carry with them as they journey through life.

Treating Your Mother-in-Law Like Your Own Mother

When I first became a part of my husband’s family, I knew right away that my mother-in-law was someone special. She welcomed me with open arms, treating me not just as her daughter-in-law but as a daughter of her own. Over the years, her kindness and love created a bond that grew deeper, a bond that became an integral part of my life.

Everything changed when she was diagnosed with metastasis cancer. Knowing she needed support, I decided to transfer to a workplace closer to her home. I wanted to be there for her, just as she had always been there for me. Her illness was a difficult time for our family, but it was also a time that taught me so much about love, kindness, and the importance of family.

I still vividly remember the time when I was in my confinement period, just a few weeks after giving birth to my third child. My mother-in-law was very ill then, and just a few days later, she passed away. The loss was a profound and painful experience for me. Losing her felt like losing a part of myself, a mother figure who had been so kind and loving.

At the time, my husband was also deeply involved in his studies, pursuing further specialization in anesthesiology. It was a challenging period for both of us. He was balancing his intense academic demands with the emotional weight of his mother’s illness and eventual passing. I knew how much he needed my support, just as I knew how much my mother-in-law needed us both. In those moments, I understood that my role was not just as a wife or a daughter-in-law, but as a bridge, keeping our family connected and strong. For me, a mother-in-law is like a second mother. I made it a point to visit her and my father-in-law at least once or twice a month, bringing my children along so they could spend precious time with their grandparents. Whenever they needed anything, I seldom said no. I treated them just as I would my own parents, believing that respect and kindness towards them are essential values I want to pass on to my children.

Here are some ways we can honor our mothers-in-law, to ensure our children learn to treat us with the same love and respect when they have their own families:

1. Treat Her with Kindness and Respect: Just like your own mother, treat your mother-in-law with kindness and respect. Show her that you value her opinions and cherish the time spent together.

2. Spend Quality Time Together: Make time to visit her regularly, even if life gets busy. Small gestures, like a cup of tea together or a casual chat, can mean the world to her.

3. Be Patient and Understanding: Understand that every relationship has its ups and downs. Be patient, and remember that your mother-in-law is also learning to adjust, just like you are.

4. Include Her in Family Activities: Invite her to join in family activities, whether it’s a simple family dinner or a day out. These moments help build a closer bond between her, you, and your children.

5. Celebrate Her as a Grandparent: Encourage and facilitate a loving relationship between your children and their grandmother. It brings joy to her and creates lasting memories for your children.

6. Communicate Openly: Keep communication open and honest. Share your thoughts and feelings, and be receptive to hers. It fosters a relationship built on trust and mutual respect.

7. Offer Help When Needed: Be there for her when she needs help, whether it’s for a medical appointment, a household chore, or just a listening ear. Your willingness to support her will never go unnoticed.

8. Show Gratitude: Never underestimate the power of a simple “thank you.” Appreciate her efforts, big or small, and make sure she knows how much she means to you.

9. Remember Special Occasions: Celebrate her on her birthdays, anniversaries, or any special day. It’s a simple way to show that she is valued and loved.

10. Honor Her Memory: If your mother-in-law has passed away, keep her memory alive by sharing stories with your children and doing things that remind you of her. It’s a beautiful way to continue her legacy in your family.

By treating our mothers-in-law with the same love and care we give our own mothers, we set an example for our children. We teach them the importance of respect, compassion, and family values, hoping that one day, they too will experience the same kind of love and respect from their own families.

In the end, it's all about building a home filled with love, kindness, and understanding, and that starts with how we treat each other, especially those who are closest to us. And as I look back on my own journey, I am grateful for the lessons my mother-in-law taught me about love and family, a lessons that will continue to shape me and, I hope, my children, for years to come.

Appreciating the Small Things in Life

Life often feels like a race, with days that fly by in a blur of tasks and responsibilities. As a mother of three, a wife, and a general practitioner, my days are packed from sunrise to well past sunset. It’s easy to get lost in the chaos and the constant rush, forgetting to take a moment to breathe. But I’ve learned, sometimes the hard way, that there is immense beauty and peace in appreciating the small things in life.

It began with a cup of coffee. I remember one morning, feeling particularly overwhelmed. My to-do list seemed endless, and I was already dreading the day ahead. I made my way to my favorite coffee shop, a small, cozy corner of the city that felt like a world away from the hustle. I ordered my usual — a simple black coffee — and sat down at a corner table. As I took my first sip, I decided to put away my phone and just… be.

That moment, with the warm mug in my hands and the rich, comforting aroma filling the air, I felt a wave of calm wash over me. It was nothing grand, nothing that would make headlines, but it was a moment that mattered. I realized then that this tiny act of slowing down, of savoring a cup of coffee, had brought me a sense of peace I hadn’t felt in a long time.

Since that day, I’ve started to make it a habit to notice and appreciate these small moments. Like the laughter of my children echoing through the house, even if it’s just for a few minutes between school and bedtime. The way my husband’s eyes crinkle when he smiles after a long day. The feel of the evening breeze on my skin as I walk back home after a busy clinic day. These are the moments that remind me of what’s truly important — moments that bring a smile to my face, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant.

I’ve learned that appreciating the little things isn’t about ignoring the big things or pretending that life isn’t challenging. It’s about finding balance. It’s about recognizing that even in the midst of the most hectic days, there are moments of joy, peace, and love to be found. It’s about understanding that these small things, when put together, create a life that feels full and meaningful.

So, I encourage you to take a moment today and every day, to pause and appreciate the small things around you. The way the sunlight filters through the leaves, the sound of rain tapping against the window, or the warmth of a loved one’s embrace. These are the things that make life beautiful, the things that bring us back to ourselves when the world feels too big or too fast.

In the end, it’s not always the grand achievements or the big milestones that define us. It’s the small, everyday moments that make up the mosaic of our lives. Let’s cherish them, appreciate them, and let them remind us of the beauty that exists all around us, even in the simplest of things.

Writing Again: A Decade of Lessons, Love, and Life

The last time I wrote on this blog page was 12 years ago when I was a medical student—still young and naive, making decisions purely based on emotions. Recently, I’ve felt a longing to write again. To write, simply to satisfy the yearning to express myself, to write, not to gather followers, but as a space where I can jot down whatever I like.

Over the years, life has taught me much about humanity, about the heart, about love, loyalty, sacrifice, family, career, and so much more. There were times I took the wrong steps, made the wrong choices, and even arrived at the wrong conclusions. But there were also moments I cherished, things I loved, and people I appreciated.

No matter what has happened, I am certain that who I am now is more mature and rational. I am someone who prioritizes others over myself, someone who values goodness in every situation, and someone who places my God, Allah, at the center of my soul and heart.

Truly, I am grateful to God for these 38 years in this world, filled with His grace and love. Thank you.