Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Mencari Tuhan Yang Hilang

Wahai Pemilik Arsy
Wahai Pemilik Tunggal alam semesta
Wahai Zat yang tidak pernah tidur
ku ketuk pelan pintu-Mu
karena Engkaulah ujung segala harapan
tempat berlindung orang-orang yang zalim
atas kezalimannya sendiri
tempat berlindung orang-orang yang ketakutan
karena perbuatannya sendiri

Wahai Zat yang tidak pernah menutup pintu
andai Kau tutup pintu-Mu bagiku
kemanakah lagi aku harus mencari pertolongan
kemanakah lagi aku harus mencari perlindungan
dari perbuatan burukku
dari kejaran bayang-bayang dosaku
dari kejaran masa lalu
dari kejaran orang-orang yang marah padaku
dari murka-Mu

Maha suci Engkau dari apa yang aku sifatkan!

dipetik dari karangan Ust Yusuf Mansur

Monday, June 28, 2010

second chance

You just caught me cheating on you. Would you turn me in or give me a second chance? Yes it is true that when you discover that you were cheated, the trust has been shattered but no one is perfect and everyone can make mistakes. So, if it happens to me now, I guess I'll give him/her a second chance as long as I can see that he/she really change. I think, second chance is like the concept of detoxification- giving chance to someone to start over or to be better.

Life is full of spins and turns. Looking back to the past, there were lots of ups and downs in my life and sometimes I regret losing the person that I was and forgetting everything I love. What one thing would I change if I had a second chance? Its good to be true, if I got a second chance and I could turn back time, I want to go back to the time when my grandfather was still alive. One day is enough! I want to spend our last eid ul-Fitr together, drive him to Kedai Dak Ling for a hair cut and ask for his forgiveness. That's all I want to do. He left us 5 years ago on the last day of Ramadhan, the day where I was busy preparing everything for Hari Raya and yet, we prepared it for something else. I know, it sounds more like a dream comes true but I think this is what I need if I get my second chance. Just to be with you, atok!

Of everything, I'm grateful for the responsible young adult I've become even though it's taken me this long to get my head out of my ass and figure out what I need to do to have the life I want. I'm extremely happy that after years of being lost in every way, I am back to my normal life again. I didn't regret for losing something or someone in the past because I know that sometimes I just need to let go so I can move forward with another. Maybe all of these happened because of the 'second chance'.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

1 tahun








She was born June, 19 2009 in Kangar, Perlis. She is the daughter of a sweet couple, kaklong and abg long. She is my niece, Athirah. She is so beautiful and I kind of had forgotten about the startle response things she did. She just grows so darn fast! I miss her and I adore the little people she is growing into. Enjoy the beautiful bundle, sweetie. You are really a lovely little babe. Happy birthday!

Its been 4 years I live in Jakarta since June, 20 2006. Happy 4th anniversary! I hope I'll be graduating on time and be a good doctor. I can't wait to go back for good and serve my country as a doctor. iyeke?

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Dastan, si putera Parsi



Dastan, a man who would seem to have everything under control win my heart with his talent, versatility, elegance and intelligence. When I first saw Dastan in Prince of Persia, I've fallen for him. The only reason is because of his smile- It can be naughty, sweet and joyously flirtatious. And yes, Dastan is handsome and he's got dimples and beautiful teeth!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Turning problems into opportunities

Two and half years ago, I still in the phase where I kept on searching for myself. I kept on digging in everywhere, trying hard to be someone else but after all these years I've been trough.. I know its not worth it. Be who I am!

Recently, I learn that there are no problems in life, only opportunities to learn.
When there is a situation that appears to be working against me, there is always an opportunity there to realize the same advantages and disadvantages that will affect everyone. I can either then put myself in a situation where I change my attributes to be in the advantageious position or I can completely change the way things work. That in turn, gives me the ability to better organize myself both physically and emotionally. Its all about my choice.

Some of my friends are getting married and some are waiting for their first baby. When people keep on asking myself about my personnel life, who is my boyfriend, when I want to get married and so on, I tell you... I don't know cause I haven't found anyone. Seriously sometimes it makes me scared. I think, I'm a family-oriented person but frankly, I also want to succeed in my carrier. I don't know whether I can balance both of them- Family vs Job but I'll try my best to choose what is best for me and my family. And again,as I said its all about choices. As I assess the progress of my life, I plan where I want to be in the future.

Looking at the bright side of my life, I enjoy it. I enjoy my life as a medical student surrounded by my family and friends. I have no problem anymore with people from the past cause I've been decided to ignore them for the rest of my life and I learn how to treat people nicely just the way I want to be treated back. I cannot lie, it is hard to be at this stage now but by turning problems into opportunities it gives me permission to improve my future. This is the notion of continuous improvement starts from where I am and move up. It's a step up.

You know what, it's so true that almost every time there is something to complain about, and opportunity is present.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Semanis Kurma


Semanis Kurma tidak lagi asing bagi sesiapa yang menonton rancangan ini di TV 9 dikendalikan oleh Ustaz Wan Akashah Wan Abdul Hamid dan isterinya Dato' Ustazah Siti Norbahyah Mohamod. Rancangan yang bertemakan 'kekeluargaan'menyajikan tips tips, nasihat dan pandangan dari pelbagai aspek kekeluargaan berumahtangga serta membincangkan masalah-masalah yang berlaku dalam sesebuah institusi kekeluargaan.

Coleman dan Cressey (1993:110) mentakrifkan keluarga sebagai รก group of people by marriage, ancestry or adoption who live together in a common household''. Kamus Dewan pula mendefinisikan keluarga terdiri daripada suami dan isteri sahaja atau berserta anak-anak terdiri daripada suami dan isteri sahaja atau berserta anak-anak’. Mahmood (1997) mentakrif keluarga sebagai unit sosial yang terdiri daripada bapa, ibu dan anak dan yang paling penting ialah wujudnya suatu pertalian hidup tertentu dalam kelompok sosial berkenaan.

Memang diakui kadar penceraian di Malaysia semakin meningkat dari tahun ke tahun. Pelbagai faktor menjadi punca penceraian dalam sesebuah unit rumahtangga. Salah satu aspek yang menjadi punca pencerian adalah penyediaan yang kurang baik untuk mendirikan rumahtangga sejak dari awal lagi. Banyak remaja yang mengambil keputusan untuk menikah atas dasar cinta sama cinta sedangkan cinta belum cukup untuk membina sebuah keluarga yang bahagia. Ilmu, tanggungjawab, kewangan, mengetahui peranan dan hak masing-masing selepas mendirikan rumah tangga turut memainkan peranan yang tidak kurang pentingnya. Alangkah sayangnya sebuah masjid yang dibina yang menjadi sunnah nabi musnah begitu saja jika asas kepada pembentukan institusi kekeluargaan itu belum difahami sepenuhnya. One secret of a successful family is its ability to solve problems together. But even more important is learning how to foster those positive conditions that prevent problems from arising in the first place.

Khawari (1989) mentakrifkan kebahagian sebagai ‘….successful family does not mean material affluence but rather an affluence of the heart, spirit and mind'. Secara ringkasnya, kebahagian adalah perasaan yang terpancar dari lubuk hati dan bukan sesuatu yang dipaksa atau disogok dari luar. Ia bukan terletak pada kekayaan, kuasa, kedudukan dan apa sahaja yang bersifat kebendaan. Sebaliknya, ia adalah sesuatu yang maknawi, dapat dirasai tetapi tidak dapat diukur atau disukat.

Kadang-kadang saya terfikir 'kenapa perkahwinan orang dulu-dulu yang dijodohkan oleh ibu bapa lebih kekal dari perkahwinan yang dipilih oleh diri kita sendiri'? Jika diperhatikan, masalah penceraian sangat rendah pada zaman datuk nenek mak ayah kita. Jadi, ini mungkin ada kaitan dengan RESTU dari ibu bapa itu sendiri dalam sesebuah perkahwinan. Bagi saya, bercinta hok tinggi mana sekalipun, jika ibu bapa sudah tidak mengizinkan atau merestui pilihan kita, pasti akan jatuh ke tanah hancur lebur jua akhirnya sesebuah perkahwinan itu. Jadi, pilihlah pasangan yang tepat untuk kita dengan bantuan Allah dan doa restu ibu bapa kita, hubungan itu akan kekal dan bahagia.

Bagi saya, Semanis Kurma banyak membantu dari segi ilmu pengetahuan yang boleh diaplikasikan untuk seseorang yang akan atau sudah berumahtangga. Jadi, apalah salahnya menonton kan?

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

My Dell

I have purchased New Dell inspiron14 laptop with core-i3 processor. I'm quite satisfied with the product and the processor and it comes with windows 7 Home Premium which supports almost 90% of the software's XP does. No technical issues so far and I should say I'm pleased with it. It seems very solid and well constructed and I love the looks, the keyboard layout, the performance, and the graphics capabilities.
I bet it'll takes me some more time to explore all the features.



So far, I haven't gone into intense gaming, so I can't really give a verdict on that. I have played The Sims 3 on it, and it plays nicely. I'll talk about it later.
I know this is the third laptop bought by my father for me and I'll try my best to take care of it through the years ahead.


Cuti-cuti Melaka... As planned, my close friends currently staying in Kuala Lumpur and Pahang came to visit the historical city Melaka. No doubt, I appointed myself as the host cum tour guide.
At 1pm, I picked them up from Melaka central and we drove to Angah's house to have our lunch there. Mak tercantik di dunia cooked the bestlicious nasi ayam for us.
After we checked in at Mahkota Hotel, I took them to do the "Melaka City tour" until 5pm... walking up a well-constructed stairway to reach the peak of St. Paul Hill from Porta de Santiago, one of the four main gates of the A Famosa fortress , passing by the Stadthuys, walking at the walkway in front of the row of museums and finally walking back to the place we parked our car earlier. It was really hot that day. So, after wimping out of walking around the red building, we really need some refreshment so we went to Umbai. Seafood time!!!

On the second day, after lunch, we headed to Ayer Keroh a well-known place with eco-tourism. So we spent some time visiting Taman Lebah Mini Malaysia where it offers visitors to deepen knowledge into the process of breeding and raising honeybees. After that, we headed to Mini Malaysia Cultural Village, a place where we can view all 13 state house in one visit. It was like, visiting Malaysia in one day. memenatkan! Frankly, we only entered 4-5 out of 13 houses there. =p


On the last day... I parked my car in front of the Hotel waiting for them. Out of sudden Aima called and she asked me to come to the room dengan suara bermasalah. I thought something bad might have happened. So, I went upstairs, rang the bell and waiting for the door to be opened. And when the door cracks open..... surprised!!!