Di saat-saat hati ingin berputus asa...

Ya Allah, rasa dah tak larat dah nak habiskan nota-nota soca ni.

Ya Allah, rasa nak termuntah tengok perkataan-perkataan dalam buku ni.

Ya Allah, rasa jantung berdetak 777x/menit.

Ya Allah, rasa mata sangat mengantuk.

Ya Allah, rasa masa sangat tak cukup nak habiskan semua 10 penyakit ni.

Keyra, jangan putus asa dulu.

Keyra, ada 1 minggu lagi sebelum soca untuk belajar semuanya.

Keyra, jangan pernah menyerah walaupun saat-saat macam ni rasa sangat nak menyerah.

Keyra, cepat belajar walaupun boleh main game kat facebook.

Keyra, seminggu je lagi perlu berkorban.

Keyra, berdoalah kepada Tuhanmu maka Dia akan membantu.

Keyra, berusahalah dan bertawakallah maka Dia akan membantu.

Keyra, mintak ampun kat sesiapa yang pernah tersakiti oleh perbuatanmu maka Dia akan membantu.

Keyra, mak dengan ayah mendoakan kejayaanmu maka Dia juga akan membantu.

Keyra, Dia pasti akan membantu. Pasti akan membantu.Pasti akan membantumu.

"Hanya kepada Engkaulah kami sembah dan hanya kepada Engkaulah kami meminta pertolongan" Al Fatihah: 5

The paradox of our time

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition. These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill. It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology has brought this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference, or to just hit "Skip Ahead"...

By Dr. Bob Moorehead

Two road diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both.

Two road diverged in a yellow wood

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

(Robert Frost: The road not taken 1915)

Have u ever faced a situation where you need to choosing between two good options?

I have!

In order to pass, the students need to achieve a final CGPA of 2.0 or higher. Anything lower than that is considered failing and must retake the class the following semester. In the 2nd year of medical school, I did not perform. My CGPA was 1.9. Actually, it was my fault for not taking the remedial class during the semester break. I went back to Malaysia for a month! For a month!!! Without considering any consequences of my actions.

I got D in cardiovascular's module so I retook the module the following semester. About a week after that, the rector made an announcement that we the failure can continue the semester without retaking the module we have failed before. I was not sure what was best for me at that time. I faced a situation where I need to choose between A and B. To stay or not to stay. So, I discussed with my parents, made up my mind and they agreed(even though I knew my mother was hoping that I changed my mind). I know every choice or decision I make leads to direct or indirect result. I just have to wait and see...

The result came out. Alhamdulillah, I got B in the exam. In fact, my new life has just began. I never fail anymore. I push my CGPA up higher. And after all I've been through, I succeeded. My friends said to me, "Tuh lah keyra, gatal balik Malaysia and tak ambik SP(semester pendek) ape pasal. Kan dah lambat! Tapi pointer kau tinggi kot!!!". Hoits kawan-kawan... 2 in 1 eh?Puji dalam keji. But still I'll be graduating one semester late than my friends.

Behind every feat of my success lies hundreds of failure. Behind every feat of my success lies a history of my hard work, emotional conflicts and persistence. And behind every feat of my success lies a great family. My family!

I hope I will do the best in SOCA ( Student oral case analysis) and pass the exam. Wish me luck!

It hurts me.

Ouch with the thumb. It happened this evening when I was about to shower and accidentally cut my thumb with a sharp razor. I was in a big hurry at that time and didn't noticed the razor inside my toiletries basket and so happened I slided my hand across. Hence, the cut! A big cut! When I saw the blood, I was struck with panic and tried to stop the bleeding. Hope it heals well.

I know it's just a thumb. But after what had happened, I realize that it is extremely important. Without my thumb, I cannot write well, cannot push buttons on the handphone, and also cannot grab things well. Everything goes unwell!*sigh*

There are so much to talk about my preparation for SOCA but I have no idea how or where to start with. I think, I shall briefly describe the place where I do my revision. Okayh, I admitted that I could get used to living like this from now on IN MY MESSY BEDROOM...Lots of books here and there, papers, notes ... its everywhere. Even I lost my pen a hundred times a day and sometimes found it under the quilt.

I don't know if you know a movie called Homeless to Harvard, a true story about a lady who went from being homeless on the street to attending Harvard and becoming a successful person. In the process to have a better life, she said to herself that she had to give up the if-this-then-that mentality. She said, "I knew at that moment I had to make a choice. I could submit to everything that was happening and live a life of excuses... or I could push myself. I could push myself and make my life good". I love this movie as it motivates myself in so many things.

Anyway, this semester things are getting more serious as I should pass my soca and be ready for KKD (Kepanitraan Klinik Dasar). So, I myself should be like Liz Murray, the lady in 'Homeless to Harvard" and fully committed myself for soca. Let's go of this if-this-then mentality- If I find a nice place, then I'll study. If I discuss things with my friends, then I'll pass my exam. No more excuses. And I should always keep in mind that 'When there is nothing to believe in, I believe in myself'. GO keyra GO!

The Last Song

"Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes it even makes you love them more"

"Truth only means something when it's hard to admit! Don't you get that?"

Do you ever really forget your first heart-break?

The Last Song, along with the book it was based upon, was written by Nicholas Sparks. The author has long-produced titles that have translated well onto the silver screen, including The Notebook, A Walk to Remember, and the recently released Dear John. Unlike his other films, The Las Song does not deal with an ill-fated romance, instead choosing to focus on the estranged relationship between a father and his daughter.

Veronica Miller, whose love for music waned at about the same time as her father left her family and moved to the south. Although Veronica nicknamed Ronnie, is still gifted at music and is accepted at Julliard, a school where her father used to be a teacher, she has no interest in pursuing a career in her talents. The main plot of the movie will focus on Ronnie's eventual reconnection with her father, as well as a budding relationship she strikes with a local volleyball player named Will Blakelee.

Seriously, I'm so eager to watch 'The Last Song', a story about family, first love, second chances, and the moments of life that lead you back home.

Nadiah,

Nadiah,

Sungguh special mendapat tempat di blog ini. Lebih special lagi mendapat tempat di hati pemilik blog ini.

Nadiah,

Kakak Nadiah jauh untuk share kasih sayang betul-betul depan mata Nadiah especially Hari Rabu ni. Akak nak ganti sehari jadi kakak Nadiah, wakil kepada kakak boleh tak? Walaupun tak boleh tergantikan, tapi mungkin boleh sedikit terubatkan?

Nadiah,

Pilih lah sehari, hari yang Nadiah suka. Pilihlah makanan yang Nadiah sangat rasa nak makan. Dan pilihlah apa-apa barang yang sangat Nadiah perlukan sekarang ni. Mungkin itu bukanlah menjadi hadiah terhebat untuk birthday tahun ni, tapi...

Akan akak cuba memberi yang terbaik....

Happy Birthday, Nadiah! Selamat bertumbuh dewasa 17 Feb ni...

love,

Kak Keyra...

Have the perfect sleep now

Choosing a gift can be more challenging than searching for a soulmate. Since the gift is certain to be highly efficacious, I brainstorming ideas for the perfect gift for her. For a day I spent my time hunting for the best birthday present for mak. While I strolled around the mall from one store to another, I've found this chiropractic willow pillow and have a strong inclination that this might be the best gift for this year. After pondering over the pillopedick, I bought it. Indeed I also bought one for ayah. The idea of choosing this Pillopedic is to provides gentle neck traction while they are sleeping. More accurately, it helps to promote correct neck allignment and maintain spine support. Maybe Pillopedic cannot repay every single night they have spent before looking after me, but I hope it can helps my parents wake well rested and refreshed after a great night's sleep. Thanks to both of you for raising us up to more than we can be.

I've been introduced to Perlini's silver by my sister-in-law who gave me a Perlini's bracelete last year. And I've been wearing this bracelet of rhodium-plated hearts for a year now - A simple Perlini's bracelete style to declare love and friendship between the two of us. Today, I bought a new pair of earings from Perlini's Silver for myself. Stunning and classic, this collection of sparkling zirconica stone earings really catch my eyes. And with my purchase, that teddy bear is mine!

The Best You Never Had

There's going to be a lot of hoopla this month and some of it will be posted on this very blog. My life is getting busier and busier as I have to slog through my Soca notes in order to be able to enact adequately in front of the doctors on that dup-dup day. For me, it's far easier to solve a Rubik's cube than to study soca. And it's now time to put some pep in the step, some glide in the stride.

During my workout this morning, she popped into my head which led me to go shopping at Hallmark store. So, after I had my rice noodle tom yam at Noodle Cafe today, I bought this card for her. As sense of homage and to seek blessing from her, I plan to send a surprise birthday present to my mother, the one I never shared and the best you never had.

The hour is getting late, perhaps it's time for me to sleep now. Itte kimasu

Prismatic life

I feel the need for motion. The past several months I have been in the situation where everything was excellent, free from hindrances. Its now the time to fully enggaged with works and smooth my path to success. There is something hit me smack dead between the eyes this morning. I must admit that I am no longer in the same phase with my colleagues in the university, no longer as close as before. As for emotionally, I've opened up myself to endless new opportunities, searched for feasible objectives. I asked myself, "what am I must desirous of?'.

There was a situation where it taught me a big lesson. It happened last raya. For my family, its like a ritual event to go visit the elderly in the family. So as planned, I wore my red silk baju kurung match with a turqoise primavera heels on that day. One of my favorite uncle commented on me, saying that was a terrible match. I went back to my house and changed my shoe. Unfortunately, he realized my Black Hush Puppies wedges and again said that I don't believe in myself and easily affected by the comments. So, after that incident I try not to be easily affected by what other people think of me. If someone or even my close friend talk bad things about me behind me, I would care no more. If someone castigates me for unreasonable thing, I would cry no more. And also, if someone hates me I ain't no need to worry anymore.

Even though everything seems different now, but still 2010 has turned out a lot better to me, a splendiferous year it will be if I change my thoughts patterns and my emotions to be more positive throughout this year. As I go the way of life, I'll see a great chasm. So, Jump! It's not as wide as I think. Until then, I just pray and hope for the best.

Last but not least, many thanks to those who are still staying in my life and willing to be near me as one of my close chum. Thank you...

Aduhai

For still not getting my monthly allowance today is a terrible disappointment and awaiting it really causes insomnia and head ache. We've been told that there's actually a problem between JPA and BNI and consequently delaying the process of transaction. So, after 3 and a half year BNI served me, I plan to switch to CIMB.

Its 1 p.m when I checked it with Ina. As one of the CIMB client, she had received hers a week ago. To share in with my emotions, Ina commiserated my disappointment by treating me to lunch today. So, I suggested we have our lunch at this luncheonette 'Gokana Teppan' as I was craving for beef teriyaki. Zillion thanks to her for this delicious Japanes cuisine.

So, for those who are still waiting for the allowance yet know nothing about the problem you can drop by En.Jazman's blog for further details.

http://jpajakarta.blogspot.com/2010/02/masalah-esh-pelajar-menggunakan-bank.html

http://jpajakarta.blogspot.com/2010/02/elaun-sara-hidup-pelajar-yang.html

Another post soon. I better get going now cause I have to go swimming at 7 a.m tomorrow. So, I am supposed to be in bed right now I reckon so.